A Crisis in My Life

Oh God I mobilize Im release to die. Im risque if this sounds re e rattling contract(predicate)y dramatic sole(prenominal) I step equivalent Ive been struck by lightning, give everyplace the head with a hammer and thrown from the top of a buildingThis dawning every affaire started norm each(prenominal)y. At s level(p) o clock I was awoken by the sound of the man- hunting piranha (my babe Elle) asking if she could scoop my new Gucci bag for her query and when I sh rise outed back no endure your own I was screamed at and lectured close to how selfish I am. I mean who does she c only back she is, as if Im sledding to let her put on my Gucci bag, I thought she would of got the affirm a line by directly that I am never going to borrow any of my stuff to herWhen the man- hunting piranha had at last left I got up and started to blow-dry my hair only later closely thrust drug minutes she came back into my way of bread and butter once again snatched the hai rdryer off me and screamed thats mine, as you formulate Get Your Own I dont know whats ill-treat with her lately, we used to get on so well but recently shes become so self obsessed As she left I shouted at her and when I clear that she wasnt listening I screamed kicking re eithery loudly. sightedness as I didnt have a hairdryer to use I had to use the right a counsellingening irons instead which set me back about half(a) an hour.When I had finished my hair I started to do my make up nevertheless to find that my sister had nicked my pink middle shadow and I couldnt get it back because she had locked herself in her populate and to make matters worsened she had her crappy nonagenarian steps album playing full blast so even if I banged on the door and made all the noise in the world she wouldnt be able to hear me. In the end I had to use my white eye shadow which was nearly running out. subsequently I had finished I got hooked ran checkmate the stairs, in additionk a fi ver off the side and left the house. I didnt have age for breakfast because as per usual I had spent too much measure getting ready and was late.I met Karen and Carrie at Archway station and I could tell that they were pissed off with me We babble outed it over and I told them that it took a herd of time and patience to gestate as bonny as me and they exactly laughed. After about half an hour a bus finally came and we arrived at school about an hour late.When we got into school I had to bursting charge down to the music department because I had a microph unmatchable arrange for the forthcoming school concert. I was going through my song and everything was going well, the song sounded great and I was singing all the right notes when in walked a vision that I had only ever leaven in my dreams. because I noticed that the vision was wearing a school uniform. This had too be one of the worst mean solar days of my keep because this meant that I would put on the boy of my d reams every day and this meant that I would have to get up an hour earlier every morning so that I would look save perfect.The teacher that he had come in with went over to talk to my music teacher. I tried to avoid eye contact with the charge up God but I failed and ended up looking straight into his beautiful blue eyes. I couldnt believe my eyes when I sympathise him coming to covers me and consequently he asked me to come down off of the submit so that we could talk. It was like a dream come true.This is where things started to go detestably ill-use. As I went to go down the stairs of the stage my legs cancelled to jelly and I ended up tumbling down the stairs head over heals, indeed as if things couldnt get any worse I ended up flat on case with my shorts showing right in front of the wake up God . He was kind enough to help me up and we average laughed it off but I still felt really embarrassed. We talked for a while and he told me that his name was Daniel and he had but moved down to London from Newcastle referable to his pappas new job. The teacher that he had come in with called him to go with him down the hall, I walked back towards the stage looking back at Daniel and like the idiot I am I fell flat on my face for the second time.I didnt tell any one about Daniel nor did I tell them about my idiotic behaviour and fortunately I didnt see him again till the end of the day where once again I made a complete fool of my selfWe were manner of walking home when I saw him again he was with a tough group of boys and I was dreading walking past them because I was sure that he would have told them how stupid I had been. When we walked past nothing was tell and comely as I thought I was in the clear I heard my name being called. I false round to see who it was and because I wasnt looking where I was going. I bashed into a lamp post. It turns out that it was Daniel who called me, he came over to me and started talking to me he asked me if I had a boyfriend and of personal credit line I had to say no.He and and whence looked at me with his beautiful big blue eyes and I think he was scantily about to ask me out when to my horror I heard my dadaas articulatio calling out my name I tried to ignore him but every one was looking at me so grudgingly I glowering round. When I turned around my dad blew a pet at me, beckoned me over to the car and called out leave my little princess wholly or Ill hunt you down and kill you and then to make matters worse I saw him giving Daniel a dirty look. I turned back round to where Daniel was standing before my dad had arrived but Daniel was no longsighteder there he was back in the crowd with all the other boys and I could tell that nearly every one in Archway was talking about me.I have never been so embarrassed in all of my bearing and now to be entirely honest it wouldnt confusion me if Daniel never talks to me again. I made much(prenominal) a fool of myself today what wi th falling flat on my face twice, bashing into a lamp post and having my dad embarrass me in front of the totally of Archway. Daniel must think Im a right fool Any way Ill keep you posted. cut cloy x.x.xFriday celestial latitude 1stYoull never pellet what my music teacher told me today, Im going to the fame honorary society house on Monday with my music class and I cant wait I didnt see Daniel today, but I had another argument with Elle this time it was because she had sneakily borrowed my little black dress from Morgan and not only did she get make up all over it but she had split it trying to get out of it. The fat appal I hate her so much I wish she would further die Any way Ive got to go mummys calling me. Chat to you before long. come toil x.x.xMonday celestial latitude 4thSorry I havent wrote all spend but ive had a really bad stomach. Today has been the exceed day of my life not only did I go to the fame academy house for a private concert but despite of all that ha ppened last week Daniel asked me out. I am the girlfriend of a Sex GodDaniel came up to me today during break and asked me out I was so happy and to make things even reveal every girl in school fancies Daniel so they are all jealous of me Were going out on Saturday to the cinema and then were going for something to eat. I dont have a clue what to wear I might try and sneak something from the man-hunting piranhas populateThe concert was wicked I even got to meet the stars of fame academy and I got their autographs it was great I knowd every minute of it. I havent had so much fun in ages and the concert was filmed so we were on television.Ive got to go now because Ive got course work to do. Talk to you soon.Love devolve x.x.xMonday December 4thThe sex God on the nose rang me, Thank in full my mum picked up the phone so Daniel couldnt be s complaintd off. I say this because my mum is really sweet and wouldnt hurt a locomote and seeing as Im a spoilt little mummys girl and she is nt very protective she doesnt mind boys phoning the house.I wasnt expecting it to be Daniel, I thought it was just going to be one of the girls so I got a surprise when I heard hello gorgeous I couldnt believe it was him, my legs turned to jelly again and I had to hold onto the wall so that I wouldnt fall to the floor. He asked me if I complimentsed to go out with him following week to an Alicia Keys concert so I asked mum and fortunately she utter yes.I dont think Ill be able to sleep tonight, Im to0 excited. Oh I love being the girlfriend of a Sex God Goodnight, chat to you soonLove Jade x.x.xTuesday December 5thSex God didnt come into school today but he came to pick me up after school and he walked me home. When we met outside the school I ran up to him and hugged him and then he kissed me and it was just amazing. We held books all the way home and he looked even more gorgeous in his own clothes. He was wearing Evisu jeans with a white Evisu t shirt and as we walked down the route all the girls were looking at him and I just kept opinion to myself Hes gorgeous and hes all mine Daniel walked me to the end of my road and then he kissed me good bye and told me he would see me tomorrow. Oh how I love my lifeLove Jade x.x.xWednesday December 6thI hate my sister, I wish she would just die, shes such a bitch Youll never snapshot what shes gone and done now she had the cheek to read my diary and then she went and told my dad everything that was in it and now I might not be able to go out with Daniel on Saturday. Ive got to go now because the bitch is coming up the stairs and I want to know wherefore she told my dad about Daniel. tossLove Jade x.x.xFriday December eighthDad said I could go out with Daniel on Saturday. Hurray I cant wait Ive got to go now Ive got loads of homework to do. ByeLove Jade x.x.xSaturday December 9thI have waited for this day for so long and now its finally here I notion sick The day has barely even started and already everything is going wrong I got up at half five this morning and had a shower only to find that some idiot had forgot to leave the hot water on. thusly as if things couldnt get any worse once again my sister had nicked my pink eye shadow so this meant I had no eye shadow to match my outfit. The next disaster happened when I was blow drying my hair and the hair dryer blew up. My sister is going to kill me when she finds out I have to go now because Ive only got two hours before I have to meet Daniel. ByeLove Jade x.x.xSunday December 10thI cant believe it despite all of the problems I had yesterday the date actually went wellElle found the hairdryer and she went mad, then she told my dad and now Im not allowed to go to the Alicia Keys concert. I hate her so much If I had the chance I really would kill herLove Jade x.x.xMonday December 11thAt about twelve o clock I got pulled out of class and I was told that I was to go home, I said bye to Daniel and he said he would ring me later and then I w ent home. When I got home no one was in so I got changed out of my uniform and just watched M.T.V Base. At about half three the phone rang and it was my mum she told me to put some of Elles stuff in a bag and wait with it by the door.My mum pulled up about ten minutes later and when I got in the car I asked what was going on, she pretended not to hear me but I knew something was wrong because she looked upset. My mum didnt speak to me for the whole journey there was just an muggy silence I kept asking her where we were going but she just ignored me. When we stopped we were outside the Whittington hospital, and at first I wondered why we were there and then it clicked that we were here to see Elle. I asked my mum what was wrong with her and once again I was ignored .When we got inside we headed towards intensive like and not expecting to get an answer I asked if Elle was going to be O.k., amazingly my mum answered with a muffled I dont know .When we reached intensive care I saw my dad he was crying, this was the first time I had ever seen my dad cry so I knew that something bad had to of happened to ElleI asked my dad all the questions that I had asked my mum but the difference was that this time I actually got some answers .My dad told me that there had been a hit and run accident in Muswell hill and that the victim was Elle. I asked if she was going to be alright and my dad said that they didnt know.I had never seen my sister like this before, she looked so helpless she had a cast on her leg, a bandage round her head and she was connected to loads of tubes. I looked at my sister and thought about what would I do without her and thats when I realised that all of the tubes that were connected to my sister were also connected to a life support machine I thought about what the last thing I had said to her was and then I remembered that the last time we spoke was yesterday when we had an argument. I then tried to think when I last said something nice to her bu t it was that long ago that I couldnt remember. It was then that I broke down in tears my mum and my dad tried to comfort me but nothing they said could make me feel better, cause all I could think of was that she could die not discriminating that I love herIm at home now and Mum has just left to go back to the hospital because dad is still there. I dont think Ill be able to sleep tonight .byeLove Jade x.x.xTuesday December 12thI was sit down watching over Elle in the hospital when I realised that I might never get to speak to her again. Mum and dad were outside talking to the dilute so it was just me and Elle. The doctor had told me that she could hear everything I said, so I took the prospect to tell her that I loved her. When my mum and dad came back into the room they found me leaning over Elle crying. I told them that I treasured to plosive speech sound but they just ignored me and took me home. When I got home I just cried and cried until I had no more tears left to cry then I made myself something to eat and I went and sat in my sisters room just wishing that she could be there to tell me to get out. At about half five the phone rang but I didnt want to pick it up in case it was my mum or dad ringing to tell me that she was dead.At the moment I am sitting on Elles bed. Mum and dad still arent home yet so Im just going to try and go to sleep. ByeLove Jade x.x.xFriday December 15thSorry I havent written in all week but Ive been at the hospital with Elle. She isnt getting any better and the doctors are starting to loose faith. Ive got to go now because Ive got to go to the hospital. ByeLove Jade x.x.xSaturday December 16thWhen I woke up this morning there were two bouquets of flowers don stairs they were both from Daniel one was for me and one was for Elle .Monday December 18thI went back to school today and all day I had people coming up to me telling me how sorry they were. I just couldnt wait for school to finish so that I could just go to the hos pital. When school finished Daniel walked me to the hospital gave me a hug then he told me that everything was going to be o.k. but for some source I didnt believe him.As I made my way towards intensive care I had a feeling that something wasnt right , when I reached the ward I found my mum and dad crying and I knew direct that something was wrong.I asked what was wrong and my dad told me that they were going to turn off the life support machine. I told them that they couldnt do that because she would die and they told me that the doctor said that they wanted to see if she can repose for herself. I said that they couldnt do that because if she couldnt breathe then she would die and then I went over to the bed held her hand told her I loved her and began to cry. After about ten minutes the doctor came in and asked my mum and dad to come outside with him. When they came back in my mum was crying again and thats when I knew that I would never see or talk to my sister again.When the doctor returned he told my mum and dad that he would be ready in ten minutes and I screamed and told him to leave us alone, then I started hysterically crying and my mum came over to me and hugged me then he left .